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2019-05-08 07:41 52322719 Anonymous (image.jpg 2592x1936 1249kB)
What's up mentally broken people?

0 min later 52322728 Anonymous
>>52322719 there's no such thing as up

3 min later 52322763 Anonymous
Anyone here is about to end up living in the streets?

5 min later 52322788 abgdjhuyt
If I thought that I would end like this I would have prefer to die as a fetus.

6 min later 52322800 Anonymous (1520553452083.png 637x360 278kB)
>>52322719 provided that there are no spooky sea creatures, I want to drown myself in that body of water

8 min later 52322820 abgdjhuyt
What a sad and miserable way to live... My existence is a fucking nightmare. Seriously for being like this, to exist having a brain that works like mine and for the absurd and pathetic life that I have had I would have prefer to never exist.

11 min later 52322849 abgdjhuyt
>>52322800 Many times I have thought of doing like in the movies, tying some big rock or metal to my body with a rope and jump right here.

12 min later 52322870 Anonymous (1522835985485.jpg 718x615 86kB)
>>52322800 >*swallows u up*

22 min later 52322978 abgdjhuyt
I'm preparing everything to go live in the streets because in a way or another it's what is going to happen sooner or later. Or my parents kick me out and many people has said to me that they won't so it but you don't have anyone in life when you are such a failure like me, even your parents will end turning the back on you. Or I will leave the house because I can't stand hearing my father arguing telling me the exact same things over and over again. He thinks that I'm gay and I have fear that the people know hahahhaha or that a sect has brainwashed me through the internet because he can't understand why I spend so much time with the smartphone HAHAHAHA. He has been telling me these things since years ago and he keeps thinking that. He also says to me that I'm gonna end in a psiaquiatric or that I'm going to die. Fuck you, as if I don't have enough thinking about that myself. Everyone will end up turning the back on you if you are such a failure like me. Not even your brothers or parents will care. And If they care it doesn't matter anyway because you will be the same failure.

24 min later 52323005 Anonymous (8HZ8rXfX.jpg 256x256 12kB)
>>52322719 Constant mental torture tbqhlad

35 min later 52323134 Anonymous
Being alive doesn't hurt. Instead, there's nothing but constantly being tired, though sleep enough. The meds help, but I just don't have the motivation to do anything other than lay around the house all day and loathe the fact I'm not doing anything to help myself, yet never loathe myself enough so that I actually go do something. I hate myself but don't know why, other than the fact I'm a useless waste of space. Bottom line, there's nothing wrong. Yet, there's nothing right, either, and I'm too numb to feel anything about it. If dying is just sleeping forever, I wish I could

37 min later 52323158 Anonymous
>>52322719 i just tore my wageslave uniform in front of the manager and a few co-workers. if i don't get fired today, i'll make a bet at the lottery.

39 min later 52323177 Anonymous (6ade6b320c6285428c8abacd8f2a8924bcff5317a3f3fc2e3c453ce8d3697c38.jpg 534x388 30kB)
starting lithium treatment today kinda scared fellas

45 min later 52323247 Anonymous
>>52323134 You have a shitty psychiatrist. He doesnt recognize you have Adhd add. healthy people dont need to loathe themselves in order to get motivated at all >>52323177 Youre gonna be fine, anon. Ever had meds for bipolarity before?

49 min later 52323312 Anonymous
I myself am waiting for the escitalopram to start working. Smoking a lot. Today i felt so bad i wanted to die. I love myself though and you all deserve to feel better anons

55 min later 52323408 Anonymous
>>52322719 just playing some vidya and about to read a book. Keeping the existential dread at bay aint easy.

56 min later 52323421 Anonymous
>>52323177 lithium is shit and it takes forever to start working. Get a real drug like lamotrigine. also if you do keep taking it DO NOT drink alcohol. shit will instafuck your liver.

57 min later 52323430 Anonymous
>>52323177 Good luck smug-dfw poster.

59 min later 52323465 Anonymous
>>52322820 we arent entitled to healthy neurotypical brains. get off your bawwagon... no seriously though having a dysfunctional brain is literally the worst prison anyone could live in. i too would prefer to be dead, but somehow i enjoy the suffering.

1 hours later 52323537 abgdjhuyt
>>52323408 Wait until you get bored of everything and you don't know how to distract yourself. Then you will know what is truly despair.

1 hours later 52323614 Anonymous
>>52323537 i was already there, im just now coming out of it. but ill regress again when im on a bipolar downswing. im in despair always.

1 hours later 52323638 Anonymous
>>52322719 Broken implies that I functioned well in the first place. I was always a little defective from the start I guess

1 hours later 52323782 Anonymous
>>52323638 Or your parents are like mine. Just being emotionally vulnerable in a shitty family makes it seem like you are the defective one

1 hours later 52323801 Anonymous
>>52323537 Then you meditate and then accept despair and take a walk.

1 hours later 52323853 Anonymous
>>52322728 What's the opposite of down?

1 hours later 52323889 Anonymous
>>52323853 the other down

1 hours later 52323897 Anonymous
Great people are great because they suffer the most. Are open to that suffering. Be patient anons. Admitting something is fucked in your life is what all these normies never do. They act ok but are just escaping the horrors we face. Endure the pain and it will end. Seek help and don't settle for less than you want. Rather suffer than settle! We will be there when the people of our generation that have it easy now get their midlifecrisis. We are the ones that will be the kind ones since our suffering made us humble. And in the end kindness is the godtier strength that all the fuckniggers that laugh about now. Let's just wait. One of the people that rejected me eventually just hanged himself. Ahahahhaha

1 hours later 52323917 Anonymous
He thought I was the weakling. Now he is dead

1 hours later 52323945 Anonymous (1556945915759.png 645x773 49kB)
>>52322800 There are three big fishes there. Most likely sharks

1 hours later 52323956 Anonymous
>>52322763 I'll just kill myself if I ever become homeless.

1 hours later 52323978 Anonymous
Started my drinking abstinence this week, I plan to never drink again after spending half the weekend in the tank after a blackout / violent freak out. Part of my mind keeps convincing me I can just moderate it but I've proven myself wrong again and again

1 hours later 52323990 Anonymous
We are where we are for a good reason. We have to figure out why we are where we are. Our soul or subconscious picks our roads effectively. So be patient anons. It will get better and if you reflect enough you will figure out what the lesson of your current situation is. Trust yourself. Great challenge is what you need to prove to yourself that you are worth shit. If youre going down, go all the way. Dont scare out. The phoenix must burn before he can rise from his ashes.

1 hours later 52324019 Anonymous
>>52323978 I have nothing to back this but a lot of alcoholics have ADHD and self medicating with booze is bound to fuck you up. Its worth a shot and the right psychopharmaca could ease your abstinence a lot.

1 hours later 52324039 Anonymous
Im not buying this branded for life addiction bullshit. There is mental illness at the root of every addiction.

1 hours later 52324049 Anonymous
>>52322719 >brain is most malleable in childhood >dad is an incel >mom is a psychopath Idk man what is up with mentally broken people. I wonder why I'm scared shitless of all women. And have little to no trust in men yet I see them as the only ones that I can relate to. Ultimately I'm scared of people. I'm alive because I'm stubborn.

1 hours later 52324078 Anonymous
So burn my beautiful above average intelligent people that can feel our societies despair. Burn. Dont run

1 hours later 52324100 Anonymous
>>52324049 dont give me these feels. my mother convinced me from an early age that sex is bad and my father too is an incel and im permanently damaged because of it. the implications are endless and are far more reaching than just sex and sociability. im older now, but some things ill never be able to appreciate or understand.

1 hours later 52324107 Anonymous
>>52324049 What is an incel? My moms a drunk workaholic doctor. She has Add Ny dad is a workaholic narcissistic Adhder. They both are too scared to take the meds. they dont trust my genius. They are scared of it so im the family nigger for knowing whats best

1 hours later 52324134 Anonymous
>>52322719 That speck on the lens is driving me crazy. Just kidding I don't have ocd, check that speck though

1 hours later 52324167 Anonymous
>>52324039 It's probably a bit of both honestly, mentally ill people get drug addicted and then you're fucked for life.

1 hours later 52324169 Anonymous
>>52324100 Do it for yourself and the truth. >>52324107 He is weak willed. He hates and mocks women.

1 hours later 52324193 Anonymous
i want a hug bad

1 hours later 52324203 Anonymous
>>52322719 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jgO 2NiL3Nuw this guy can help you people

2 hours later 52324265 Anonymous
>>52324019 I've been in therapy since last year and trying to convince them I have ADHD, they should be sending me for tests soon. I'm also convinced I have PTSD because I have moments where I phase out and live a completely convincing and terrifying alternate reality where everything goes catastrophically wrong. Only thing I have officially is OCD and a non-specific learning difficulty. Thanks for the link between alcohol and ADHD though I'll see what they say

2 hours later 52324369 Anonymous
who /electro shock/ here? my ex gf used to get it and it fried her memories. anyone else got anything similar?

2 hours later 52324443 Anonymous
>>52324369 >shock in 2k19 but hwhy?

2 hours later 52324450 Anonymous
>>52324169 Then my dad is an incel as well. I have been too but I got over my mom.

2 hours later 52324496 Anonymous
>>52323853 That's a trick question, there's no such thing as down either

2 hours later 52324518 Anonymous
>>52324134 Only some individuals with OCD have preoccupations like that. Mine, for example, manifests as a constant preoccupation with corpses and intrusive thoughts/urges regarding them. I don't give a shit about the speck on the camera because I'm hyper-focused on some arbitrary bullshit totally outside of that. Same with cleaning, compulsive hand washing, or any other stereotype about the disorder you can think of. Although I am an extremely obsessive person, it fucking irritates the shit out of me when people assume that everyone with OCD loses their fucking mind when there's a stack of something off-center or a speck on a lens.

2 hours later 52324540 Anonymous
>>52324265 What gave you Ptsd? I'm certain it wasnt an accident when I was 8 and kept crawling into my godmothers bed when she was visiting and one morning the was naked. In the end I felt like I was the horny bad one. The first thing ill address when I finally get a psychotherapist that I doesnt try to dominate me by some game out of fear of my intelligence. im glad to have given you a hint to go on! Getting mental health profs to realize your Adhd is still a huge pain in the ass these days. Some of them just love to give you irreparable diagnoses like OCD to make you lose hope and submit to their bullshit.

2 hours later 52324549 Anonymous
>>52324369 ect is 2017. Total of 10 session bilateral. ECT sucked. After the sessions when I was in the recovery room my head had so much pressure on it, jaw felt hard to move and teeth hurt. Short term memory loss still affects me but it was a lot worse when I was doing ECT than it is now. Don't get ECT if you don't absolutely need it.

2 hours later 52324550 abgdjhuyt
>>52323801 >Take a walk. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Wait until you get bored of going to the exact same place to walk alone meanwhile watching couples kissing each other and normal people in general just having a normal life.

2 hours later 52324576 abgdjhuyt
>>52323638 Yeah I was never a normal person either but compared to who I am now I was somehow a normal person in the past.

2 hours later 52324599 Anonymous
>>52324540 Cont when some neurotic tendencies are the malfunctioning coping mechanism for some other illness like bipolar or adhd. They just latch onto the.most obvious thing about you and feel like a true hero, even if that is just a fucking insult to.who you are as a person. Red flag that their therapy is still about their own unresolved mental illness that they studied psychology to resolve for in the first place

2 hours later 52324604 Anonymous
>>52324549 Did you forget any major life events or is it mostly the small stuff?

2 hours later 52324650 abgdjhuyt
>>52323897 >Admitting something is fucked in your life is what all these normies never do. They act ok but are just escaping the horrors we face. A normie or normal person doesn't have psychological problems. He can have normal problems like being shy or don't knowing what to study but those are normal problems.

2 hours later 52324730 Anonymous
>>52324550 You are only able to take a walk once you meditated. If you go before your self loathing supermind will latch onto the first apparently happy person you see and idealize them. Youre still your worst enemy and youre actively helping. Relationships are a way to escape your hardship too. It's a subconscious decision not to fall in love because you know it's not time for love yet. You are in your situation because normal was either never an option or never enough for you. Special people dont have normal lives. And they accept that and stop comparing. you dont want to be them, trust me.

2 hours later 52324805 Anonymous
>>52324650 normies dont try to overcome their problems. They are okay enough to stay shy their whole lives. People who face their issues feel worse in the short term. Normies get fuckong bored of their normal lives in the long term because they never felt so bad they considered death. To not be shy you need to have suffered. Staying shy was never an option for me. Normies just stay where they are forever. They dont ask the painful questions

2 hours later 52324831 Anonymous
>>52322719 I fuck a sissyboi from Grindr last week that let me DOM his boipussy and psychically abuse him, his little penis couldn't get hard was great he cried when I slapped his testicles

2 hours later 52324847 Anonymous
As someone who got out of a year long relationship with a bipolar girl, FUCK YOU, bipolar cunts. I hope you all suffer, A LOT. You are horrible people.

2 hours later 52324879 abgdjhuyt
>>52323990 Yeah I'm fucking destroyed as a person, my life is completely destroyed, I'm completely alone and I spent the few times I go out of the house wondering like a semi-hobo around the city with my bicycle. This must be for a reason yeaaaaah you are right. Life is not a fucking movie moron. Do you think that your life being miserable and you being pshycologically deranged has a purpose that will be revealed some day and then everything will be ok and everything will change like in a movie and you will be happy? Are you 16 or are you incredible naive?

2 hours later 52324881 Anonymous
>>52322719 Another day of jerking my hard cock to Bailey Jay and some other cute Asian girls with little boiclits

2 hours later 52324900 Anonymous
>>52322978 Why not become someone's boiwife? I mean you already whine and blog post like a 14 yo girl go the next step and get TOPPED

2 hours later 52324921 Anonymous
>>52324604 Mostly small stuff. Like when I first started getting ECT I needed to remind myself multiple times what directions of i needed to get home on the train (like north or south, etc) and what time I needed to be at the station. That continued for like a month after my last session. Now it's not that bad

2 hours later 52324940 Anonymous
>>52322719 I'm not mentally broken. I am unhealthily prideful and look down on people, it's not the same thing. >>52323853 Inverse down.

2 hours later 52324959 Anonymous
>>52324847 Some fun statistics: >bipolar disorder affects men and women almost equally >approximately 2% of the population has some form of bipolar disorder >women constitute over half of the world's population >the last census taken (in 2017 by the World Bank) indicates that the world population is 7.53 billion >it is safe to assume that the population has increased in the last two years, and estimates definitely indicate so You have decided that one abusive cunt is representative of at least 75,300,000 people, by the most conservative estimates. Statistically, do you think it might be likely that there are at least a couple of bipolar women who are not abusive cunts who don't deserve to suffer?

2 hours later 52324996 Anonymous
>>52324879 I walked this earth feeling pain every step that i took. Im not naive. I was where you are and youre right its hell it fucking sucked. Thing is are you going to accept that shotty reality or are you going to move forward and be the fucking despicable semihobo to the bitter end? Life is whst comes once we are out of this shitty barbaric mess. There is no purpose. Life is meaningless. But one day I will be happy. Not over night. No. By staying true to who I am and not letting fear immobilize my every effort to get better. There is a reason you fucked your life. It was worth fucking it all up to the extent of your current state. All I'm saying in the end you can rely on your human ability to get over ANYTHING. Thats what makes us so great. You will get over it if you dare to be the shitty shitnigger that you think you are right now.

2 hours later 52325016 Anonymous
>>52322719 The sky mate.

2 hours later 52325078 Anonymous
>>52324879 Cont. And in your current deranged state you attribute most decisions you have made to your innate weakness. If you ever get to a degree of functioning that is required to truly own your life you will realize that a lot of the steps you took you curse yourself for right now where actually fuckong smart and the reason you will be the great person you might become. Trust your decisions. Theres a subconscious you that knows pretty damn well why and what. Only if youre in ugly hobo mode youre too preoccupied with how you might look to see your greatness. And its been there the whole time. So stay bitter pal. Sarcasm the shit out of it. Just see it through and you will be fine is the gospel i preach.

3 hours later 52325129 Anonymous
>>52325078 Cont. Envy the fucking normies but they will be the ones with the regrets in the end whereas you and I might be the ones happy and out of life in the end. They will be old and unhapoy and gossip and we will he surrounded by loved ones because we never backed down.

3 hours later 52325165 Anonymous
>>52325129 Life fucked us in the poopie. Are you really gonna keep letting it or are you gonna scream until theres mo agony left?

3 hours later 52325177 abgdjhuyt
>>52324805 >Normies just stay where they are forever. They dont ask the painful questions And that is why they are normies. Because they don't overthink everything and question everything and feel frustrated all the time about themselves. Thinking too much leads you to psychological problems and being a cynic too. Realizing nothing has much sense, that life is just an absurd set of routines and there is nothing special about you or your life. Also that you are alone at the end of the day with your thoughts and your brain, nothing more. I will give you an example for why I think normies have the better life. Instead of doing what I'm doing now, writing here about these complex abstract subjects, normies are watching a football game with their friends drinking beer and eating a hamburger. They don't think about bullshit. They can be dumb but I prefer being dumb to be more intelligent and then becoming paranoid always thinking about shit that don't go to anywhere or realizing that everything is absurd and becoming a cynic.

3 hours later 52325203 Anonymous
>>52322719 That picture makes me feel uneasy for some reason.

3 hours later 52325248 Anonymous
>>52322763 Yeah kike to be honest if you about to be homeless just honestly kill yourself not even saying that in a mean way like all that struggle is just not worth it anon not saying you should but like that what i would do

3 hours later 52325257 abgdjhuyt
>>52324730 YES, I WANT TO BE A FUCKING NORMIE. I would want to have been the most normie, average, unoriginal, unspecial, dumb, etc., person in the world. Just a fucking regular person with a stupid job and a normie girlfriend and that have normie hobbies. Never wondering about all the bullshit that I have been overthinking all my life.

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