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2013-01-07 06:27 5139559 Anonymous Birth (1347335217729.jpg 600x600 167kB)
It's finally happened. I've realized that I'm a loser. Turned 24 yesterday. I'm unemployed and still live with mom. I go to school, but I won't graduate until I'm about 26 (started at 22). My value has just gone down incredibly. I feel like I should start smoking (not sure why, but it seems like it would help). On a physical level, I feel that something is wrong...I get weird pains at night when the distractions are gone and I realize I'm still living at home and have no money. I should be doing something. I've applied to 20 jobs since yesterday. I'm starting to get real freaked out here. Time is some real shit. Anyone know this feel?

2 min later 5139577 Anonymous (12.jpg 960x600 185kB)
>>5139559 You can be a sick cunt if you want to be mate.

3 min later 5139588 Anonymous
>I should be doing something What is it you should be doing? Why should you be doing it?

4 min later 5139594 Anonymous
Don't start smoking dumbass, if you don't have money why would you start an expensive habit?

5 min later 5139597 Anonymous
I'm 29, still living at home, have never had a girlfriend, never been kissed, gone out on a date, or held hands with a girl, been working the same minimum wage job for almost a decade, and have no idea what to do with my life. I am taking some IT classes next semester but honestly I get the feeling I am not really interested in IT and am just trying to force something that will make money because I don't know what else to do. So yeah, I know that feel. And time is some real shit for sure.

5 min later 5139601 Anonymous
Major? pLEASE tell me you're stem

5 min later 5139604 Anonymous
>>5139588 Moving out, I guess. I seriously think that would boost my self esteem incredibly, even if I was just living in a shithole with a bunch of other people.

6 min later 5139610 Anonymous
At least you still care enough to apply to job offers. I've given up on my life a year ago and am pretty much just waiting for the courage to off myself at this point.

6 min later 5139618 Anonymous
>>5139594 Not to mention that you'll eventually have to quit. Which fucking sucks. You never stop wanting a cigarette. Never. >>5139604 Is that a possibility?

6 min later 5139619 Anonymous (tumblr_mefk1rXwgM1rm5mhoo1_500.jpg 500x676 97kB)
>>5139559 8w9egiaergipoeraklg

7 min later 5139624 Anonymous
>>5139601 >implying STEM degrees guarantee employment in this day and age

8 min later 5139635 Anonymous (op.jpg 500x1144 118kB)
>>5139559 You get one slow, painful, inexorable march to the grave. Make use of your time OP.

8 min later 5139637 Anonymous
No, not really. I'll have my MA by the time I'm 22. I'll be writing my dissertation in Calcutta, enjoying the local scenery and using the famous Calcutta book market to acquire study materials. I'm already qualified to teach English as a foreign language and will use it as a means to support myself as I travel around the world during a two year gap between my MA and PHD. Really, my only problem is that I'm a little nerdy and reclusive and have never had a gf. But even that isn't such a problem, because the people I do meet seem to like me and apparently I have a very approachable vibe. I'm doing good. I'd like a gf and to be more capable with girls, but it's no biggy. I'm happy enough. Sorry your life sucks, OP. Want to come to India and smoke Himalayan hash whilst doing research?

8 min later 5139642 Anonymous
>>5139624 A degree is only worth as much as your ability to network and build connections while in college. STEM helps, but its not necessarily a requirement.

10 min later 5139651 Anonymous
>>5139594 I probably won't start smoking for that very reason. Just thought I'd mention the fact that I have the desire...maybe I associate it with stress relief. >>5139597 I'm not a virgin, but my living situation/not having money puts a hamper on my sex life. >>5139601 Math major, yeah. Thinking about double majoring w/ chemical engineering, but that would just put me in school for another year.

10 min later 5139660 Anonymous
>>5139597 Shit I'm you but 3 years younger.

15 min later 5139702 Anonymous
>>5139618 >Is that a possibility? Yeah. The only thing holding me back is lack of transportation (used to have a car, but it shat out on me about this time last year). I borrow a relatives car to get to school and could potentially borrow it for a job (she's old and never drives). I mean, I'm taking pretty much all night classes this semester specifically so I can work during the day. I just need the job.

21 min later 5139735 Anonymous
Well I know I am a loser for some time, but here I go 23yo kissles virgin, living with parents, most of the time NEET, just make enough money to buy gaymen pc one in a while severe anxiety, If I musnt I dont go out for months, Never been interested in posite sex, or relationships in life, after I started taking antipsychotics I am more down to earth and for the first time I want gf, this makes me suicidal, and the fact that thanks to antipsychotics I am not living in my dream world anymore, reality hits me like motherfucker. I must take large dozes of benzos and hypnotics to not kill myself. Personaly I think psychologist and therapist fucked me up badly. Before my treatment I was happy. I was hikikomori playing vidia, trolling internet and I had everything I wanted. Fuck the real life, I am going off meds.

24 min later 5139762 Anonymous
dont sweat it man, after a while you realize that it doesnt matter if you dont fit what society has drilled into your brain since birth. look at how stressed "normal" people's lives are... do you really want that?

25 min later 5139778 Anonymous
>>5139735 What, don't you want to have a soul-crushing shit job in a shit environment with shit coworkers and a shit boss so you can keep producing worthless crap, pay your taxes and make some asshole rich in the process? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU

28 min later 5139797 Anonymous
>>5139778 Well you kind of have to unless you want to eat out of dumpsters...

29 min later 5139804 Anonymous
I'm 26 year-old kiss-less, hug-less, virgin. I haven't been to college and if I go back this year I'll be what, 32 or so when I graduate? I don't live at home and I do have part-time employment, but you're still small time.

32 min later 5139829 Anonymous
>>5139797 Dude do you even welfare and parents?

33 min later 5139841 Anonymous
>>5139797 I prefer to just collect the dole, or, failing that, jump off a cliff or something. Either way I don't want any part in this.

34 min later 5139861 Anonymous
>>5139829 Ah, you must be a britfag then. Here in the US there is no welfare for healthy, single white males.

39 min later 5139900 Anonymous
>>5139804 Are you also completely friendless? And how are your social skills?

39 min later 5139910 Anonymous
The origin of suffering is attachment. The origin of suffering is attachment to transient things and the ignorance thereof. Transient things do not only include the physical objects that surround us, but also ideas, and -in a greater sense- all objects of our perception. Ignorance is the lack of understanding of how our mind is attached to impermanent things. The reasons for suffering are desire, passion, ardour, pursuit of wealth and prestige, striving for fame and popularity, or in short: craving and clinging. Because the objects of our attachment are transient, their loss is inevitable, thus suffering will necessarily follow. Objects of attachment also include the idea of a "self" which is a delusion, because there is no abiding self. What we call "self" is just an imagined entity, and we are merely a part of the ceaseless becoming of the universe.

40 min later 5139920 Anonymous
life is boring and there is really nothing of interest. funny how shit changes yet stays the same.

46 min later 5139958 Anonymous
>>5139910 I hate Asian philosophy so much.

46 min later 5139962 Anonymous
>>5139920 This is true. Especially if you're not extremely talented or gifted and have something to offer other than consuming oxygen.

47 min later 5139968 Anonymous
>>5139910 you make no sense. we are organic robots who want to build more robots the same as us, attachment is derived from not wanting our environment to change for the worse, our environment is the origin of our suffering.

50 min later 5139984 Anonymous
I just turned 20 and honestly, threads like this motivate the fuck out of me.

52 min later 5139997 Anonymous
Start doing drugs man. I was like you, albeit also being a virgin ( which severely amplifies the "loser" status). One night, when I was contemplating to end my life and I figured I had nothing left to lose, I just did some Molly. I was blown away. I had sex shortly afterwards and I can say that sex doesn't even come close to the waves of euphoria that X induces. It changed my life. It freed me of my social anxiety, problems and suicidal thoughts. I'm a happy person and my education hasn't suffered under my use.

53 min later 5140006 Anonymous
>>5139968 >environment is the origin of our suffering. no, thought is what makes you suffer.

56 min later 5140021 Anonymous
Watch this music video, and listen to the lyrics. All people who reach the age of 24 should know about this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iGs3DnQt7cQ&hd=1 Cheer up.

58 min later 5140028 Anonymous
>>5139997 Nah, man. Drugs were pretty much the key reason why I've wasted so much time. In between a serious relationship that fucked me up after we broke up ('cuz we isolated ourselves and my best friends left the state by the time we broke up) and spending the next couple years drinking and doing LSD all the time, I wasted a fuckload of my early twenties away. The ultimate goal, the motherfucking RESOLUTION is to move out by years end. >>5139984 I hope they do. I remember having this conversation with a dude older than me when I was 18 about how he was just getting his life back on track after fucking things up and I thought to myself "man, this guy's a loser/idiot. i'll never end up like HIM". Stay focused, bro. We're all gonna make it.

58 min later 5140031 Anonymous
IKTF every year gone by is more kids that can fulfil your economic role in life

59 min later 5140039 Anonymous
>>5140021 I love that album, man. There's no better time to listen to that song than right now.

1 hours later 5140045 Anonymous
>24 >never had a job >live with dad >on the dole i was going to say that this blows, and i guess it does. i have no friends anymore, no money, nowhere to go and nothing to do, but when i think about it i laugh a whole lot just by spending my time browsing 4chan and reading you fucktards. and if i'm enjoying myself then there really isn't a problem. i do have fears for the future though. it oesn't feel secure. i have visions of me in the gutter begging for sammiches.

1 hours later 5140059 Anonymous
>>5139968 >>5139968 you are completed deluded, you want more people in this miserable state of mental anguish cause by deprivation of attachments.

1 hours later 5140076 Anonymous
>>5140059 Nice reading comprehension, Sir. Protip: he wasn't talking about himself. Not necessarily, at lest.

1 hours later 5140085 Anonymous
I kind of know your feel, although Im a couple years younger, Im at the same point, unemployed, 2 years into school, still live with mom. I wouldnt worry too much until you finish your school, its not like there's a rule saying you need to have a career going by the time you're 22, most people dont even have that at 30, or even 40 (these days anyways). If you feel you need it, try to get a part time job at a gas station or mcdonalds or some shit, again, nothing to be ashamed of there, those jobs were practically designed for university/college students (make sure you mention you are current enrolled in classes, I think companies get a tax write-off for hiring students, although Im not 100%). Also, for the record, I have had jobs before (even one possible career that I royally fucked up), and decided to quit my last job to go to school and hopefully get a better one. Good luck anon, but your life probably isn't any worse than most of your classmates.

1 hours later 5140097 Anonymous
>want to take a few classes >drive around the parking lot a few times >get out >try to keep from flipping out as I walk through the halls >find myself hiding under stairs and shit waiting for people to pass At least you managed to go to school Hell I don't even feel bad about living at home, I don't expect to be any better.

1 hours later 5140107 Anonymous
I'm 21, live with my mother, and don't drive, go to school or do anything. I guess the real kicker is that I'm pretty much satisfied with this situation. My mom makes enough money that I don't feel like too much of a mooch (and I help around the house with daily stuff, she doesn't do my laundry or anything). I guess the only thing that makes me sad is that my mom and dad probably wanted more for me.

1 hours later 5140116 Anonymous
>>5140097 Just force yourself to get through the whole first day. I experienced similar anxiety, but I found after the first day or 2, I stopped caring about looking stupid (which is ridiculous, you're at a school doing school things, who's going to say or do anything?)

1 hours later 5140128 dudebro
You're going to school dude so you are doing SOMETHING even if its not producing any immediate results. Math majors have pretty good job prospects too so once you're out of school you'll probably get set up with your own place and shit pretty quick If you really feel like that's not enough though, pick up a hobby... do something creative that could maybe bring in a little money on the side, like painting or drawing and selling your art, or picking up an instrument and joining a band, or some shit I honestly don't think you've got much to worry about dude, you've still got most of your life ahead of you and you're not as far behind as you seem to think Also don't start smoking it won't help you feel better about yourself

1 hours later 5140180 Anonymous
I wish I could attend an American college. European universities are hell.

1 hours later 5140310 Anonymous
>>5140180 >European universities are hell. What, in particular, appeals to you about American colleges and what is so hellish about European universities?

1 hours later 5140460 Anonymous
>>5140310 American system: >streamlined >decent student support >transparency >clear curricula >fucking expensive European universities: >artificial barriers everywhere >not enough courses for all students >no student support whatsoever >profs are free to do/grade however they see fit >ever changing curricula >(almost) free To name but a few points.

1 hours later 5140502 dudebro
>>5140460 >streamlined >decent student support >transparency >clear curricula >murrican university system lol no Clearly this was written by someone who has never been to one

1 hours later 5140529 Anonymous
>>5140502 Of course I haven't, have you even read the thread. But I guarantee you that this is true in comparison.

2 hours later 5140566 Anonymous
Firstly you shouldn't simply mass apply to lots of jobs. You need to cater your application to each one. Secondly, who cares? The vast majority of people are losers. They don't do cool things and go on adventures and go to parties full of sexy women and hard drugs. They watch talent shows on a Saturday night and have boring sex with their boring girlfriends and spend all of their money on a new washing machine or fixing the car so they can get to their boring jobs. They're not really doing anything special. If you envy them then you have built up their tedious lives in your head too much. What you need to realise is that all of that shit. All that external shit. It won't make you happy. It won't fill voids or make you feel accomplished. Well I suppose it might short term or if you are incredibly dull and you'd feel happy if only you had just as much of shitty life as everyone else. But really if you haven't gotten any of that shit by the time you are 24 then you probably just don't want it enough and you should start measuring yourself on your scale. I'm going to work on a commune soon because I'm sick of feeling like "if I just get over this bit of my life I can relax and enjoy myself". Fuck that. I don't want to worry about anything any more.

2 hours later 5140611 Anonymous
>>5140566 Why would a self-proclaimed individualist such as yourself still think in milestones? That's the stupidest most depression inducing shit one can do. Not trying to bash you, just wondering.

2 hours later 5140655 Anonymous
>>5140460 I'm not sure you are right about "European universities". Not much of that applies to mine. A couple of things I really like about the American system are the variety of subjects and the grading system. In the UK you just do one subject. Which I like but at the same time your final grade is held in the same regard as someone doing an easier degree. In the sense that you can get the same mark as someone else but they could have been given free modules options or done a couple of bogus classes. So part of their final grade is made up of a basic french class they took. But I didn't get that option. I had to do nothing but difficult course related modules. I didn't get to do a creative writing class or some token team working class where I was guaranteed a good mark. In the US at least you had the option of doing some easy classes if you felt like it. I'm not sure why we don't just adopt the American marking system though. In the UK there is a world of difference between getting a 60 and a 69 on a paper but they both get you the same mark in the end and if you do something like Mathematics its much easier to get a higher mark. If they just gave me a number instead it would be much more representative of how I actually did.

2 hours later 5140720 Anonymous
>>5140611 I didn't proclaim to be an individualist did I? By milestones were you referring to the "if I just get over this bit of my life I can relax and enjoy myself". comment? That's the reason I want to go and have a different lifestyle. I don't purposefully measure my life like that it's just that so far it has been "if I just finish this exam period it will all be better" that king of thing again and again.

2 hours later 5140888 Anonymous
I'm approaching 27 and have zero accomplishments to my name. Still a friendless and kissless virgin too.

3 hours later 5141313 Anonymous
>>5139559 you sound like me OP. I'm 24 and started smoking last year due to stress. I'm also looking for a job. I got my masters degree last year. Still leaving with my mom and it's making me sick. I have a gf now but I was a kissless virgin not less than a year ago. I met four girls since then which is kinda weird.. well I have also more friends since it's been 4 years that I work my social skills. This was very hard at the beginning btw but worth it eventually. You can't gf without a circle of friends imo.

3 hours later 5141555 Anonymous
I refuse to smoke or give myself up to drugs and whorish lifestyle. I think it causes even more suffering in the long run.

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