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2015-10-01 04:02 5013089 Anonymous (1360520941864s.jpg 125x125 1kB)
That feel when autogynephilia. I don't have gender dysphoria. It's just a fetish. Today I have indulged in it again. I feel very bad. Every time I am about to meet men on internet. But afterwards I feel the opposite. My sexual life is a nightmare

1 min later 5013099 Anonymous
I feel I have comitted a crime against everything holy

4 min later 5013111 Anonymous
>>5013089 same OP. it's mostly porn's fault, you just gotta go cold turkey i work with computers all day so i relapse constantly

9 min later 5013130 Anonymous
>>5013111 Thanks for the advice. I once went without porn and fap for about a month. Then I went back. When I'm horny I think it's who I am and I use porn to explore my sexuality. Afterwards I feel I have made a huge mistake.

10 min later 5013131 Anonymous
How old are you?

10 min later 5013136 Anonymous
>>5013131 22

11 min later 5013139 Anonymous
>>5013089 Don't be ashamed of your fetishes. Sexuality is healthy. You will tear yourself apart with self-loathing if you don't accept yourself.

13 min later 5013147 Anonymous
>>5013139 You are right, I should accept who I am

15 min later 5013153 Anonymous
>>5013136 And you sure there's not even a little bit of dysphoria? I'm not trying to force any theory but I have had agp since I was like 5 and now that I'm 20 (and before that) I have experienced dysphoria

20 min later 5013167 Anonymous
>>5013153 I was a normal boy. I have experimented as a kid but nothing serious. Around 17 I though why don't become a cute trap, but I decided I am okay with being cismale. I have not ever had any girlfriend. Maybe because of low self-confidence I have given up on traditional sexuality.

4 hours later 5013954 Anonymous
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4 hours later 5013977 Anonymous
Why do the threads have hats?

4 hours later 5013997 Anonymous
>>5013977 Because today is 4chan's birthday

4 hours later 5014012 Anonymous
>>5013997 Happy birthday 4senpai

4 hours later 5014016 /pol/ack
>>5013089 I wonder how mentally ill the fuckboys of roman senators and the like were. Did they bitch all the time about that?

4 hours later 5014051 Anonymous
>>5013089 >>5013099 >>5013111 Question: Why do you autogynephiles come to /lgbt/ if this is merely your fetish and you are not trans? Would the other boards not take you seriously?

4 hours later 5014068 Anonymous
>>5014051 It deals with non traditional sexual habits that could be considered bisexual, also maybe OP thought that /lgbt/ could be more sympathetic towards this kind of issues, does it bother you too much?

4 hours later 5014071 Anonymous
>>5014051 That is a good question. When I'm horny I think I am bisexual and androgynous or something and I just explore my feminine side Afterwards I feel guilt and think it is a deviation

4 hours later 5014076 Anonymous (1442800357711.jpg 255x255 27kB)
>>5014071 Why don't you try doing lewd things with a boy?

4 hours later 5014084 Anonymous
>>5014076 This. Let a boy push his cock deep inside you. Engage in pure sweet boy bonding!

4 hours later 5014092 Anonymous
>>5014076 What do you mean a boy? I'm not a pedophile

4 hours later 5014095 Anonymous
>>5014071 I think the guilt will go later in life but there's probably no cure for agp

4 hours later 5014099 Anonymous
>>5014071 >I think I am bisexual and androgynous >androgynous How does that work? Lel, post pics?

4 hours later 5014104 Anonymous (1441562829538.png 486x643 98kB)
>>5014092 I mean a guy, duh. >boy sounds cuter

4 hours later 5014111 Anonymous
>>5014099 I believe all people are innately androgynous They have both male and female hormones They are non-diffirintiated while in womb So why would I confine myself to just one side

4 hours later 5014115 Anonymous
>>5014092 A boy is any male Abraham Lincoln was a boy is the same as saying Abraham Lincoln was a male

4 hours later 5014118 Anonymous
>>5014099 But I am an ordinary guy IRL

4 hours later 5014120 Anonymous
>>5014111 >>5014118 Mate, I'm talking about looks here, not feelings.

4 hours later 5014123 Anonymous
>>5014104 This Boy sounds cuter for some reason

4 hours later 5014130 Anonymous (1442918434726.jpg 1024x724 174kB)
>>5014111 nice trips tbh (to be honest)

4 hours later 5014133 Anonymous
>>5014104 When I'm horny it's like another personality is taking control of me and I am about to do lewd things with a guy and let him feminize me Afterwards I return to being normal and feel guilt about my desires

4 hours later 5014135 Anonymous
>>5014123 Its more light, weak, innocent as opossed to man or males which reminds you of beards and body hair

4 hours later 5014143 Anonymous
You don't have any reason to be ashamed of yourself. Kink is healthy. Even if you did turn out to be a very picky bisexual, your kinks don't make that identity any more or less valid. I'm a sadist and a masochist. I've roleplayed some freaking things in the bedroom, and collected a slue of related fetishes, but I sleep well at night. I know that my fetishes aren't going to make me hurt anyone.

4 hours later 5014144 Anonymous
>>5014120 I look as a cismale but feel like I have both male and female sides

4 hours later 5014149 Anonymous
For someone who isn't dysphoric you don't seem very happy.

4 hours later 5014158 Anonymous
>>5014135 Yeah you're right. Basically I just love fucking cute feminine boys. I love shoving my cock deep inside their butt and hearing them squeak as I pound them. I love petting their hair and stroking their cocks. It is the cutest thing ever.

4 hours later 5014166 Anonymous (1391454810288.jpg 398x500 21kB)
>>5014158

4 hours later 5014178 Anonymous
>>5014158 That sounds pretty hot

4 hours later 5014184 Anonymous (1443483930598.jpg 1280x720 692kB)
>inb4 OP becomes a sissy

4 hours later 5014187 Anonymous
>>5014016 It was mostly the lack of consent. Certain things were held in higher esteem than others, and being forced to be a cum dump when cum dumps are seen as less than people can really fuck with your head. They probably didn't get to bitch, or at least not taken seriously if they did. Like really, they're trained from a young age, to do one job. And that job is seen as the job of an object more than a person.

4 hours later 5014201 Anonymous (tumblr_mjk77k7Wb21rqna90o1_250.gif 245x245 358kB)
>>5014158 I need you, anon.

5 hours later 5014211 Anonymous
>>5014133 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZXs QAXx_ao0 Honestly though, the AGP isn't the problem. How you handle it, is the problem. I'm into my fair share of fucked up things too, but life's far to short to spend it not doing what you want to do. Follow your dreams, anon.

5 hours later 5014215 Anonymous
>>5014178 It is. It really is. >>5014201 You do? Got a throw away email?

5 hours later 5014227 Anonymous (1430933305595.gif 182x319 1048kB)
>>5014201 >That feel when your bf pets you when you cuddle.

5 hours later 5014240 Anonymous
>>5014133 You perceive that entity as separate because you detached yourself from it. Both the cock happy slut and the prudish wtf ru doing man personalities are of the same mind. They both have needs. Find a way to meet both, and you should be able to fix your guilt regarding your desires, and bring integration to your personalities. Or something like that.

5 hours later 5014251 Anonymous (1430940328749.gif 249x188 841kB)
>>5014240 He means you need psychedelics.

5 hours later 5014288 Anonymous (cat on acid.jpg 469x640 57kB)
>>5014240 That too. Somehow they both became separated, but they're both you OP. They came from the same person. They need to accept each other, or rather, you need to accept yourself.

5 hours later 5014329 Anonymous
>>5014288 Yes, you are right. But how? I can't neither express nor repress neither of them

5 hours later 5014348 Anonymous
>>5014251 Probably not. I just smoke weed. But your front alter and your (for lack of a better term, if you have a preferred name, tell me) "sissy" alter clearly have conflicting interests. At some point in your life they broke away from each other. And since you had more invested interest in the front alter (your temporal face essentially) you buried the sissy alter into the recesses of your subconscious mind and classified it as other. It essentially only comes out when it's needed. This brings your front alter (the one you identify with) distress. Your being seeks integration, whether you know it or not. Hating the sissy hurts, accepting it threatens the front. So... what do you do? >make small steps towards integration and self love. >feel your feelings until it no longer feels like relief to do so. Then feel what comes up next. Your whole un-fragmented mind knows what to do to integrate. The rest is following it, trust your intuition. and uhhh... Idk, I don't wanna say go do drugs, but if you feel a pull to something like mushrooms or whatever... I won't say don't. Life is a lot weirder than we're told it is supposed to be.

5 hours later 5014394 Anonymous
>>5014144 Not talking about gender, mate. Looks. Do you actually look andro? >>5014187 I wish I had one.

5 hours later 5014405 Anonymous
>>5014394 He wants you to post pics OP.

5 hours later 5014408 Anonymous
>>5014394 Yes, I don't look feminine. I look like a beta male. I have wide hips and a little gynecomastia though. Maybe I should check my hormones level?

5 hours later 5014414 Anonymous
>>5014405 Just an ordinary non-girly guy, trust me. No pics, sorry

5 hours later 5014416 Anonymous
>>5014408 I prefer flat chests and skinny bodies tbh.

5 hours later 5014425 Anonymous
>>5014348 Thanks. Maybe it is a process of integration of anima complex or something? It makes sense. The only way is to integrate my psyche.

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12 hours later 5016276 Anonymous
>>5014348 >Life is a lot weirder than we're told it is supposed to be. This is some serious wisdom right here. Shit is weird as fuck. Anyone who tells you they are 'normal' is lying through their fucking teeth.

12 hours later 5016434 Anonymous (1440969798494.jpg 512x384 17kB)
>>5014329 >I can't neither express nor repress neither of them This so much. I feel like by trying to actively avoid these fantasies and thoughts I'm repressing it, which are taught not to, but at the same time I'm trying to make something of myself and live a life I can be proud of, not sit around thinking of cock all day and crossdressing for the small reward of regret and sad cums. Its tough because with nearly every other drive or habit that makes us feel bad or less than what we are we are encouraged to fight against it, but with sexuality we're just suppose to take it up the ass, literally. >>5013111 I think its the porn too, I went a few weeks without it and felt so much better, the only downside was that fat black chicks were now suddenly attractive.

12 hours later 5016453 Anonymous
>>5016434 Could you tell me your age and if this is only for sex or have you started to experience dysphoria? I'm 20 and I have dysphoria now, I don't know what to do... I'm >>5013153

13 hours later 5016490 Anonymous (1413122548417.jpg 400x384 30kB)
tfw learning I'm trans and actually don't have AGP. >don't masturbate >can't ejaculate except during wet dreams >had dysphoria from an early age, just didn't know it >thought testicles were disgusting >no interest in sex for a long time >prozac blunted anxiety >always had interest in girls' things, but did boys stuff due to imprinting. >imagined self as girl from time to time, somehow seemed "right" >feelings keep getting stronger as I age I'm 22. And I'm transgender. And I'm going to transition.

13 hours later 5016504 Anonymous
>>5016453 23, no dysphoria, thank god. I think in my case its just pure perversion, I feel the most turned on when I imagine myself playing the female role in sex, and I've been doing this for a long time.

13 hours later 5016537 Anonymous
>>5016504 Thanks for the answer anon

13 hours later 5016600 Anonymous (smugface.png 767x1036 537kB)
>>5013089 I am trans and I get turned on by seeing myself as a shemale. Since I keep myself from atrophying I still get erections and these I get just from seeing myself as a dickgirl and femboy to some degree while I don't find seeing myself as a female hot or erotic. How new & original & unique brand of AGP speshul snowflake am I?

13 hours later 5016624 Anonymous
>>5016600 how do you keep from atrophying? can you still use your erections?

13 hours later 5016675 Anonymous
>>5016624 You can get erect even years into HRT as long as you make it erect at least once a week tbqh.

13 hours later 5016710 Anonymous
>>5016675 >tfw trans >only want orchi tbh, could ignore penis if it was just for peeing and shriveled up to like 1 inch >still possible to get erections after orchi >no way doctor will cut the nerves to make penis useless

13 hours later 5016739 Anonymous
>>5016710 i want to get an orchi while keeping the peeing thing too but i am worried that the day after the surgery i'll hear about this ground-breaking procedure that makes it possible to turn testies into ovaries

21 hours later 5017621 Anonymous
If there was a magic pill which fould transform me into a female and back, I would use it I must ponder on it as a thought experiment

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